It’s a small crime

Mid years are over and here comes the bloody As’. Human geog paper which was the last and worst paper of all because I didn’t have good sleep for the whole week and my mind was pre-occupied with shopping. I even wrote down a “to do list” after my mid years in the midst of writing the disgusting uneven development essay. One of which is to pack my garbage room, go to chomps, go to marche, go to ikea, go to the beach, go and start studying. |: Reality just won’t sink in for me. Although I feel panicky and worried at times, I’m chilled and this is bad, really bad.The June holidays just passed so quickly with so many events in my life, except studying of course. Leaders camp was awesome I say, the way God spoke and moved and ministered. Even though the first two days was a hard time for me as I struggled real badly with him, Nevertheless, my God reigns above all. Cell chalet with M1 was a wonderful time of fellowship and fun. (: You know I’ll miss this cell so badly when I move on to highlife, that is if I don’t retake my A levels. Rachel’s birthday party at the rural changi was good with the theme, Stripes and it was better sitting around the chocolate fondue machine with my classmates eating like a pig. Then having short but good conversations with people like Kimkeat, Pak, Partner and Rachel as well. Service learning at the Children’s home was heartbreaking. It made me realized about the importance of a strong family unit. I’ll think twice before having a child in future because I want to give him/her the best, so much so that I will never want to neglect him. Oh the motherly love like how my mum gave me !(:Chinatown with Ru today and bought many exotic stuffs which only cool people like me are able to find them, hah. (Lian, I’ll show you what I bought kay!) Off to Vivo later on for donuts. We sat at the roof garden to talk about, Life. We were on the topic of judgements based on our fasle assumptions and perceptions about people. Then it hit upon me that I need to guard my thoughts about how I view people and all. Not gossiping is not good enough, you got to not think as well. Dipping our feet into the water and heads back on the bags with donuts on our hands and chocolate and sugar all over my face, Then came the rain which spoilt my mood. I’m a happy girl anyway. (:

 

Supper with Chris, Aaron and Nick later on and it was a productive time of catching up although I was half awake most of the time. I hate army boys, :D I hate what NS did to all my male friends and my heart goes out to you :D Your life reminds me of that like a dog. I had shaker fries, coupled with the donuts, zomg I feel like a buffalo now. Look at what NS did to dear Chris:

§ i want to oot …NOW NOWNOWNOWNOWNOW §” says:

what’s <3 life

“§ i want to oot …NOW NOWNOWNOWNOWNOW §” says:

less then 3 life

Goodness, what are they doing to you ?! that you cannot even identify a heart shape.

My human bio clock is seriously screwed now and the dark circles around my eyes are something which turns me off at one sight. I’m currently listening to oldies from Michel learns to rock and I’m not okay. I’m not in a sane state of mind as to conceal my actual emotional turmoil from people. You won’t understand because my motivations are disillusioned and not fixed, like that of Iago :D

I hereby proclaim I’m bankrupt. I went home with $1,50 but at the bus stop, this old and vulnerable malay aunty had to take a bus home and it was raining heavily. She asked me for a $10 change & me having my precious $1,50 which is less than $10 turned her away. And then 3 seconds later I opened up my purse again and gave the $1.50 to her without accepting her 10 bucks. And my heart felt immediately lighter ! I know it’s only $1.50 but that’s what I’m left for the entire week ahead okay. That $1.50 can buy me a double chocolate donut with a 30 cents change !

This part is dedicated to Favian Lou that you are dearly missed by me throughout the whole week because there was no one to bully me in class and I just felt even more disturbed without your presence, I pray that you will stop dreaming of earning big easy money and get back on track with your studies. You’re an intelligent boy Favian even though I often say that you’re the dumbest and fairest ugly snow white on this planet Earth. Give yourself and studies another try. (:

Sever my arms from me, I still will hold thee
with all my heart as with a single hand,
arrest my heart, my brain will keep on beating,
and should thy fire at last my brain consume,
the flowing of my blood will carry thee.

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